Self initiated illustration based off of the New York Times article: Neighbors Say Barn Weddings Raise a Rumpus.
Old colored pencil drawing of mine from 2006! Super glad I found it, might fix it up.
Lately I’ve been having a lot of moments that feel very coincidental, or as if someone is looking out for me. For example, I packed my bag last week to go back to my parents house, thinking to myself, ‘hey, might as well, never know if you’re going to want to stay’. I had no intention of staying, but when I got to work later that day my boss had asked me to work the next day at 8am, and my parents live conveniently seven minutes from where I work, so having packed that overnight bag turned out perfectly. I also haven’t had a photography gig in a few months and just when I needed $200, I got asked to be a backup photographer for a wedding, which provided me with exactly $200.
I’ve been stressing lately about money and where to take my life next. I’m still trying to figure out how and when to fit school or classes of some sort back into my schedule, but I started searching for new jobs and have found some opportunities. Just as I was beginning to freak out, a person I work with had to go on a leave due to illness and my boss asked to give me full-time hours, and I got answered back from a coffee shop job in the airport. From the coffee shop job I wouldn’t get any flying perks, because it’s a separate company, but it still would be fun to work there and meet all kinds of people - tips are good, pay is alright, I would work four days a week from 4am-1pm, I would work with a friend, get benefits after one year, and be closer to my home in Minneapolis. It’s interesting to me that just when I feel like I’m going to breakdown these opportunities present themselves to me, as if someone is watching over me.
I’m not sure which direction I’ll go, but I want to make a big change. And, as silly as horoscopes are, mine told me to make big changes and not fear. But I also need to be logical, I have bills to pay and need to survive. I could work here a while longer to help out while this person is on leave, I could save up some money and then make a change. Or, I could now - it would be nice to make a change now and to be closer to where I live, especially before Winter.
Anyway, call it coincidence or the big man upstairs, but it feels good to have a bit of good karma on my side, and I hope to keep it that way. I have to remember how young I am, and that I don’t need to be stagnant, I don’t want to just survive, I want to have stories to tell, more of them. I always tell people that whatever happens was meant to and that things always work out in the end how they are supposed to - it’s time I start listening to that too. There is so much to see in the world, so much you can do with life. And I’ve done a lot for myself already. Maybe I’ll apply out of state, I’ve been wanting to see New York. Who knows, maybe I’ll find myself in another country someday. I hope I do.
:] Stay tuned.